Some funny statements i read... Check it out !!

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS

Smart man + smart woman = romance

Smart man + dumb woman = affair

Dumb man + smart woman = marriage

Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy



OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit

Smart boss + dumb employee = production

Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion

Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime



SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.

A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.



GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.


HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.

To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand
her at all.



LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more
willing to die.


PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.



DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.



HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and
cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the
same thing to them at funerals.

ARGH... been rotting since this morning le... so bored.. got nothing to do in the office.. me and cindy has been walking ard almost everywhere... hai... cannot go on like this leh... will freak out wan... although i portrait as a quite lazy person but im not ok !! im very dilligent to learn de... hahah...

This few days weather very suitable for staying at home to rot or sleep isnt it? but !! for those ppl who have to work (ahem.... me...) its very sad for us... First.. we cannot rot... can lah.. but not in the open of coz... secondly... we cannot possibly sleep in the office right?? Thirdly, we have to wake up early... TORTURE !! life is unfair.. how true....

Anyway, during the weekend.. i went shopping and watch harry potter with my sister... We went to a shop call (FOREVER 21) located at wisma, there i ask my sister a question...

"Jie, u are no longer 21, so i dun think u belong here...."

"ITS FORVER 21... Not just 21 wat... yr english fail ar? or u too stupid to understand the meaning of forever?" she argued..

Rolling my eyes to her stubborness..... "But.... Why kid yrself??" i replied...

This statement cause a big blue black on my arm... violence is cruel... words do hurt... physically i mean.. hai...

just then... my phone rang.... its kee lin...

"How's my crush doing??"

For yr information.. his crush is definitely not me... she's...... or is it a He... hmmm.. kidding !! anyway... cannot say... promise him le.. hahah..

"Are u insane? Shouldnt u be asking how's my bestest pal doing since u sms ME??" i replied...

"ok..... How's u and yr double chin doing?".. he smsed...

Best pal...... Total shitness.....!!! for yr information kee lin..... Im loving it(my double chin...) !! humf !!

Im back by popular demand.. haha.. Finally im happy with my blog and i can now start blogging again.. The reason why i didnt update recently was becoz i couldn find my past blogs and im quite pissed off with it... Im a perfectionist u see.. so if there's something wrong with the blog.. i rather not use it..! thats me.. haha..

But... Ta Da !! here it is now !! u can see my archives ont the main page... yeah... thanks to heng yee !! thank u !! thank u !! i will treat u eat lunch k? but only canteen food.. becoz i lazy go out... hahah..

Anyway, been at my new company for almost 2 weeks le... ppl here are nice.. lucky for me, cindy is here so i wont be so left out... Also.. my mentor Ming is nice too.. although he always say im very irritating... i know he dun mean it... keke..

2 weeks here and i have a nickname le.. 13 point.. its not a very good nick though.. it means.. Oh well... for those who dun know.. let remains this way.. hahah...

Last thurs and fri.. i went muar-malaysia on business... sound so profound right? but ACTUALLY just went there to see the production line... staffs who are not confirm are not suppose to go but i did.. hahah... lucky right? i will talk abt my trip in the next blog.. got to find something to do now..

Been rotting since 845.. shit !! later kanna sack... hahah... last thing... kee lin went to genting... that fellow really know how to enjoy life.. better buy me something of else....... hahah... cheerz....

*Yawn*
Freaking sleepy today... I did had enough sleep last night, maybe its becoz of some stupid dream i had... The dream continued throughout the night man... killing me softly.... and slowly... i'm afraid to dream again... ok !! im exaggerating.. hahha... but still.. it was a horrible dream..

I dreamt of HIM.. yes him !! after so long... crapz... made me think of him again.. hai... oh well.. guess i dun have to worry much abt him now, since there's someone taking real good care of him.. *coughcough* hahha..

Think my boss purposely out to get me since im leaving this place... keep finding fault with me... Maine...... Endure... But wat the fuck !! leave me alone for heaven sake !!! Mind yr own business biyatch !! anyway...5 more days and im out of here... Honestly.. next week is my so called one week "rest" break.. but im like fully booked already.. no idea why... too popular i guess... hahaha...

Think i didnt mention it here before that im starting my new job on the 7 nov as an Engineering Asistant right?!! For those who is giving a questioning look now... WAT??!! see small me right?? think i will stuck at mac for the rest of my life right?? but too bad.... i got the job !! :op hahah.. during my last cousin's gathering, I announced to one of my cousin abt the news...

Maine : Quick congrat me !! Yr cousin here has got the post as an Engineering Asistant !!!"

Josie : " So?? Big deal...."

Maine : "Hey !! Hello !! its my first offical full time job leh.. Somemore can get such post is very the capable already hor.. can give some face.."

Josie : (smirking)" Plz lah.. U are only an Engineering Asistant... Not ASISTANT engineer hor.. Need to be so big headed meh... and.. since young when did i ever give u face? Never did.. Never will..."

Maine : "U wait !! One day i made sure i will be an Asistant Engineer !! "

Josie : "When that day come then that day talk... For now, talk to the hand coz the face doent want to talk to u..."

Maine : (speechless...)

Somehow i find no one love me in the Seow family... i feel so neglected.. (dropping tear)

FUCK !!! the sun is shinning brightly all around singapore today !! Aloysius just updated me with a sms saying that it is very VERY sunny over there at sentosa!!

Whereas Im still here in my store slogging away when everyone is having their tan !! FUCK FUCK FUCK !! damn pissed off.. these few days have been raining *meowmeow*, *woofwoof* & *oinkoink*... Why must it be sunny today... god is unfair........ shit !! hai..

Anyway, had a great time with the girls at Our Secret Garden resturant yesterday... took lots of pics.. i mean alot when i say alot man !! until i choose to be the one behind the camera instead of posing infront of the camera.. becoz its so embarassing... hahah..

One thing abt going out with them was, we never fail to tease one another, never fail to find laughter, never fail to take lots of pics... hahah... i enjoy their company alot... maybe its beocz we all know each other for so long thats why we have no restrictions within one another... Although we as a whole, are made out of different characters.. really different but i guess thats wat made us complete as a group ba... hahah...

hope to see them real soon again... love u girls to much !! muackz...

Sharon said.... "Dun always be happy too early...."

How freaking true... U see.. i was happily looking forward to my 2 weekends off isnt it... i was gloating at all my crews just few days ago... saying...

"ahahahahahha... i dun have to work this weekends but u guys have to... hahahah... too bad...."

So now... look who have the last laugh... all becoz of the dreadful sms i recieved from my boss yesterday............

"Maine... can u help me do opening on sat? im on MC for 2 days..."

Wat the fuck !! bad karma.......... so kids, this tell u not to laugh at ppl or u will not have a good ending... like me !! CB... hai.. just becoz im leaving here in a week time she have to do this to me right? ARGH !!! So there goes my sentosa outing... hai.... so sad... oh well.. thats life !!! crapz.. hope it rain on sat... becoz if the sun is shinning brightly on that day... and im cooped up in my store and not out on the sentosa beach.. i will cry my eyes out man !!

anyway.. my sister is angry with me AGAIN.. as usual.. nothing new.. hai.. i will not go through the incident now becoz its just too painful.. *sniffsniff*.. hahah.. . but hopefully she dun wont be pissed off for too long or i will have a hard time at home... cause her sarcism really gets to me at times... hai..

kk.. wanna leave my store soon already... my shift is over !! have to go home, get changed and meet the girls for dinner at bugis... was planning to stay out late tonight initally but now.... since i have WORK tomorrow.. its wiser to go home and rest early... SHIT !! ciaoz........

Went for a short business trip with my dad yesterday to JB.. Kinda crapy becoz all i did was having my butt glued to the seat for the whole journey... No shopping... No walkng around.. No anything.. But if the emperor(my dad) wants me to go, how the hell can i say no?? So... as i was happily singing along with the radio...

" bloody malaysian drivers !!" my dad suddenly shouted...

Wat happen was, there were two lanes heading towards the woodlands checkpoint... One lane for motorcycles and the other was for cars.. so anyone with the right mind knowing that they are driving a freaking car will have to queue in the lane for cars which happen to be on the right... honestly, dun give the reason u dun know which lane leads to which coz even my brother(who happen to be an idiot) can tell....

So.. wat the inconsiderate malaysian drivers did was... they drove on the motorcycle lane, and upon reaching the split junction, all of them try to cut in the queue into the car lane... they still have the cheek to signal that they wants to cut in.. HALLO !! do u think u ppl are doing the right thing?? crapz.. all of them drove really close to the car which was in the right lane so that the car do not have a choice but to give way... this is totally UNBEARABLE !! wat make things worse was...................................... some singapore cars did the same thing !! Kaoz... Asian.... KIASU !! pure disappointment.........

" Wa lau eh... They can drive until like that want meh, daddy?' i asked

"Seriously, theres no law here.. the system sucks too.." my dad reasoned...

Conclsion... Hai... Nothing more to say abt them....

So as we were getting back in a mood of a nice car ride... Singing, chatting, laughing etc... This fucking bus came speeding from the side, entering the expressway we were on.. Come on lor... Even though i failed my basic theory 3 times, i also know that u are not suppose to do that !! Lesson one..

"When u want to enter an expressway, u should make sure there will be no collison before picking up speed to follow the flow of traffic..."

NOT SPEED LIKE NOBODY FUCKING BUSINESS !! MOREOVER, IT IS A FREAKING BUS !! NOT A TINY MINI COOPER FOR HEAVEN SAKE !!

hai... no idea why i will fail my advance theory when all this ppl get to cruise on the road !! this is totally unfair... And last.. for the finale comment...

All this driver happen to be male drivers !! So think before u say... "haiya.. drive so slow.. must be a female driver..." HELLO !! at least we as female driver follow some thing call THE LAW !! last but not least.. guys are still labelled as CHAUVINIST PIGS !! No arguement needed... case closed.. hahah...

Im so looking forward to this two following weekends... Cause i have two straight weekends off... Do u know how rare it is to have such rest days when u work as a Floor Manager at mac... the chances is like never lor.. So im making full use of this weekend to have fun !!!

Tml we will be celebrating ralph birthday at Scarlet Hotel (which i have no idea where the hell is it)... Due to the fact that i have been out every time i have the chance recently, my dad is quite unhappy abt my plans tml... But who cares... i just have to "sa jiao" then surely can go liaoz.. hahha... but i practically begged him this afternoon.. hai.. wat can i do.. everyone wants to protect me.. im a princess in their eyes u see.. kekek... The scene this afternoon was like this..

"Daddy.... I have to discuss something with u.... this few weeks i'm going to have to attend many birthday parties and gathering hor... Just to let u know in advance..." i battered my eye lid as i speak..

"So?? U can just attend by phone call..."

"How to leh???" i asked...

"Simple.. Just call them on their hp and ask them put on speaker.. u can pretend that u are there.. Dun think abt going out mei.. u too much already this few days..." he ended with a phrase which slapped my face...

"But... But... Ahhhhh... (here is the sa jiao part)... Di........ I work so hard at mac so i need to relax mah....."

"U can jolly well relax at home... Sit infront of the tv just like yr mum.." he snorted, together with a side glance towards my mum who is very much glued to the tv.. like always.... She and her korean dramas ... haha...

"Please dun pull me into your conversation !! i dun want to get involved... Stay at home lah mei..." with that, she smile with that mischievous look !! Oh god !! wat did i do to deserve such parents... Thank u ar.. thats wat mothers are for ain it? First, they refuse to stand by u.. second... they help the opposite party to sharpen the knife and stab u with it !!

"Daddy please......... i help u wash yr car lah.... Can lah... Let me go lah... "

"No need... I dun want my car to break down after u wash it... eveything u touch will definitely spoil... Wat time u want to come back?"

"Hmmm... Wat time u want me to be back?" (this was always a winning question.. it makes the parent think that they are still very much in control..) ahahha...

"10pm..." he ended with a smirk..

"HUH???!! but the party starting at 7 plus leh.... later abit can?" Once more the pathetic face reappear...

"Then too bad... Stay at home then..."

"12 o'clock can? Even cinderalla can be home by 12am leh!.. i promise to be realllyyyy good.."

"Fine !! Dun be late !! Or u will regret being born..."

Suddenly... the korean drama queen added...

"Why let her go? Let her stay at home ma..........." my mum said with that nasty grin on her face..

"Mummy !! just watch yr tv lah k? Dun interupt or i tell daddy u put the korean star picture in yr wallet !!" i whispered to her...

"Dun be late ! " She ended off facing back to her tv... Hai... So i find out... My mum is such a B***H.. Sorry. cant say it out or i'll get strike by lightning.. hahah..

So Shirmaine seow has won the battle !! hmmm... Sunday i still have another party leh... Shit.. i have to start begging again tml... oh well... Thats life !! not everything will go yr way.. haha..

"...When marimbo rhythmn start to play, dance with me... make me sway..."
Micheal Buble was AMAZING !! Went to catch him live at the indoor staduim on monday.. he's just fabulous !! Although i cant really see his face due to my cheapskate seats but his voice was sooooooooooooooo good... Goodness.. i just melted listening to his soothing voice... Why is it that men entering my life cant sing like this !! SHIT !! Haiz..

He has a great sense of humour too... Few times he amuse the audience with his jokes.. He ran down the stage to meet the fans but i was sitting WAY WAAAYYYY back so he didnt come over.. *sobsob* Wanted to tailed him back to his hotel but was stopped by my sister.. Why wont u let me go??? Maybe i can be Mrs Buble tml.. hehehe... yeah.. im still dreaming...

He went on doing tracks of Maroon 5 "This Love"... and he did it beautifully............... *MELTZ* Why am i here and he's there? shouldn keep two ppl in love apart right? kk.. im thinking too much le.. hahah... Didnt regret going... One thing that disappoint me was that he didnt sing my favourite song 'The way u look tonight' !! ARGH... hai.. But he's worth every penny man.. ok.. the tix we got happen to be the second cheapest.. but hey ! at least we pay to go ma... isnt it?

".. Sis, i think i want get a souvinor from this concert leh.. Come all the way here dun buy anythin very wasted hor.." i ask my sis..

"... Firstly, its too darn expensive, if u want to pay for yrself then go ahead.. but if u expect me to pay then F off..."
"....Secondly, Why the hell u need it for? as if Buble will know u bought it and come 'oooohhh, u bought my items? so sweet of u... let me sign for u...' No right? Mei... WAKE UP LAH !!...

And she ended off wih a bloody smirk on her face.. as if she just talked sense to an idiot... haiz... for yr information.. My sister is like no other sister... She's very pretty like a rose and also her words have torns also like a freaking rose.. times when she start her sarcasm, the person getting it will feel the pinch... and im telling u... its not those kind harmless ones... look at me !! im still traumatize by my sad childhood.. hahah.. but i love her alot.. She's like a role model for me... i'll do anything to protect her.. as if she needs my protection.. hahha...

One thing i hated abt going out with my sis is that... guys always look at her, after looking at her then they will like give me a so-call side glance as if pity me that no attention was given to me !! hello !! im not that bad ok !! haiz... But seriously, those guys cant keep their eyes to themselves even with their gf beside them... Conclusion... Guys are PIGS !! This lead to another conversation...

"Why the hell these guys keep looking? Dun they have shame ??"

"...mei ah...... yr sister is so gorgeous they cant help looking... Just look at the girls walking beside them... such tragic faces.. of coz they rather look at me..." she replied..

-.-" this was the face i gave her.... haha...

I was LATE for work this morning... Shit lor.. I was suppose to be at my store by 0630am for opening and guess wat time i woke up... 0640 !! fucked up man... Had the shocked of my life when i see the time.. First time in my macdonald career i was this late.. Moreover.. i was never late for opening before mind u.. total crapness.. Got to book cab somemore..

I reach store abt 710... fast right?? i did bathe un worry... haha.... i was mentally prepared to get a thrashing from my boss lor.. but then sharon cover up for me so.... I GOT OFF THE HOOK UNHARMED !! wahhahah.. lucky me.. but then again... i cant claim the taxi fare becoz the time on the reciept will blow the cover... hai.. but oh well.. theres a price to pay for everything aint it? hehe..

Lionel commission ball was fun man..so freaking formal.. got stunned when i entered the hall.. but i was properly dressed as well so it was alright? He bought me flowers when he came to fetch me.. so sweet right??? hahah... sometimes he can be so nice.. but there are times when he treat me like shit lor... hahaha..

So sleepy now.. wanna go home and sleep now le............... Zzzzzz.....

According to my so many years of experiences in shopping... i can conclude that we, as shoppers cannot really trust the salesperson... I went down to CK tangs this afternoon to get my gown.. yup.. i got it finally... so, actually.. i was in a confused state coz theres two dress which i took a liking on.. and i cant decide which to purchase... I came out of the dressing room with the first outfit...

"....oh !! u look so lovely in this dress... brings out yr femine side... (as if i have one.. crap..).. the lady said...

Honestly.. i look fat lor... becoz there is this fizzle pattern at the tummy area which made me look so compressed together !! I look at lionel and he just keep laughing.. idiot... thanx for not helping... so.. i came out again with the next outfit...

"....this dress really fits u perfectly... no alteration needed.. just perfect.." the SAME lady said...

After her comments for the first dress u think i believe her... hell no !! So i took a very long time to looking ard and finally decided on the second one... hopefully i didnt made the wrong choice... but seriously, if one person is pretty.. no matter wat she wear, she will also be pretty lor... hahahah.. shameless again.. i know..

I went home... eagerly wanting to call my best pal Tan Kee Lin to tell him abt my dress... But guess wat !! he aint ard... he not at home and he didnt ans his hp... Honestly kee lin... why the fuck do u have a phone when u dun answer !! so.. i smsed him...

" Are u avoiding me kee lin??"

10 sec later.... i recieve an sms...

"Call my hp now..." cheapo singaporean !! making use of free incoming call.. tsk tsk tsk... hahah

So.. i called him... i gave him a decent "Hello" u know....

"Wat?... was his reply... how rude.....

Guess where is he???? He's at bt panjang mac updating his blog !! making use of the wireless there... kaoz.. si bei cheapo lor.. hahah... he didnt even purchase anything and he have the cheek to sit there for god knows how long... all i can conclude is that......... my bestest pal is truely a CHEAPO !! hai...

And oh ya... my last day in this store will be on the 30th oct... that will make it 24 days to go !! yeah !!! Im going to leave here will a blast !! Been here for abt 2 years plus le... going to miss my crews here though... but.. everyone have to move on... so guys... dun cry for me ok? hahah.. as if they will... love u guys lots.. although u all always bully me but i still love u all.. haha...

Tml is the Ball... Wish me luck !! hopefully i dun embarrass lionel... come to think of it... HE better dun disgrace me !! hahah...

One last thing... Ril... take care of yrself in tekong k... u will always be missed...

Till next blog !! Ciaoz.........

FINALLY !! been busy busy busy till no time to blog... kk.. lets start on Oct 1st....

Kz.. That day was Lionel's commission parade.. and of coz im invited.. im one of his important guest u see.. heheh.. shameless.. the whole parade was damn grand wan.. usher everytwhere and stuffs.. oh ya.. got to thank lionel's dad for the ride there.. Went with his whole family.. abit shy.. hahah..

So, all the graduating officers was dress in smart uniform.. couldnt really tell who is who when they march in... all i know was lionel is in contingent 7... and in that contigent theres almost 40 ppl.. try spoting that !! hai.. after much searching ard, i finally spotted him.. he look so dashing in the uniform... gosh... as he was marching up the stairs, he gave me a wink.. wow... can faint.. hahah... after the whole parade thingy, we went down to the parade square to have our pic taken with him.. will post them soon alright??

After that, i rush down to stuart's bday... i got on a cab, told the driver the destination and then sat back and listen to the song SUO YI by sly sim.. humming to that song all the way there... so i reach there, saw two of my pals from poly.. Fariz and Kumar.. Kumar didnt change abit but i had to admit Fariz look fitter.. hahah.. we chit-chatted abt life.. mostly NS stuffs which i was no interested at all... im a girl for heaven sake !! They disturbed me like usual.. Meeting up with them didnt change abit.. Just that there used to be someone beside me.. but its alright... i can live with that.. hahah...

I got to admit, my heart still beats when i saw him... he's still shahril.. but just that he's not my shahril anymore.. we didnt talk much, maybe becoz we got nothing to say to each other anymore... Anyways.. He's going NS this friday.. i wanna wish him all the best... somehow a little part of me still miss him.. surely wan ma.. right? hahah.. Take care of yrself in tekong.. dun force yrself too much in physical.. and dun be so stubborn !! hahah..

Yesterday i took my advanced theory.. And.. i failed... expected wan... didnt study at all.. damn busy ma.. nevermind... there's always next time.. hahah.. anyway, lionel say he will be my driver for life wat.. sweet right? hahahah.. i think he scare becoz if got my license only i will take his wife out for a spin... how selfish.. hahha.. After that, i went home to sleep then went out shopping for my gown !! lionel's ball is this friday and I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR !! shit !! always last min.. sianz...

And one last thing... aloysius hurt his back... see lah.. play basketball somemore lah... guys will always be guys.. Deserve it !! hahaha... becareful next time !!

Going shopping again later after work.. so.. wish me luck in finding a gown... till then.. ciaoz..

This past few days have been shiity for me... IM SICK... being sick is not only the prob... wat worse was i had to work stupid shifts somemore.. 4 days in a row i did closing.. it was freaking tiring plus my throat, my nose, my limbs and my head is giving trouble !! Wat luck...... C rapz....

But by yesterday, i was all well and ready for shopping... kekek... met kee lin at town for a brief shopping trip. like usual... i was late.. so out of politeness.. i smsed him to apologize...

" I will be a little bit late.. Im so sorry.. Plz keep yrself entertained till i reached ok? Hehehe..."

" Go and Die... " THAT WAS THE REPLY !! how crude.... Sensitive male virgo BYATCH !! Hai... Some good friend i have... oh well...

So.. i reached safely and met him at heeren.. We walked ard for a while and decided to go cine for a movie.. unfortunately, there werent any nice movie on so too bad... Actually.. The aim for today's outing was 1) get a nice shades for myself... and 2) girls hunting... Dun worry.. im straight... the looking at girls part aint for me.. Its for the unfortunate guy walkng beside me... wahahaha...

" Why arent we looking at guys too?" KL suddenly asked

" i mean... u are a girl so why arent u looking at guys??"

"hmmm... Becoz i dun look guys, kee lin.... guys look at me..." hahaha... that answer left him in silence... GOT CHA !! hahah... but isnt it true??? okok.. im shameless... SO !!! hahahah...

So next.. we made our way to LV boutique... The "tall" guy announced that he never been to the boutique before... I was shocked !! HELLO !! its LV... god.. where have he been to all this years.. Mars??

"Actually... Ya.. Woman is from venus and Man are from mars...." He replied.. -_-" wow... that reply doesnt really linked did it.. crapz... hahah..

kk... then we spent the next hour at coffee bean outside wheelock place.. we declared that place a gathering place for smokers... due to the seatings are all at outdoors.. ppl ard smoke as if they have no tml.. hai.. i feel my lungs turning black just by sitting there... anyway.. we chose our spot near the edge.. 1). Becoz the air there seems cleaner. 2). its more convenient to look at girls this way.... that was our main objective ma... So must fulfil it !! hahah..

We ended up talking crapz AGAIN.. how come we are so full of crapz??? i had no idea.... but it was fun chilling with him.. since he's so full of shit.. hahhah... anyway, we decided to go each and every one of the coffee bean branch in singapore to see which is the best.. kinda lame though... but it doesnt matter.. as long as we are happy right?? kekek..

Tml i have a date with angeline !! then a dinner date with my cousins... Hai... so busy.. why am i so popular??? hahaha.. kk.. shameless statement again.. hahah... till next time.. ciaoz....

So... Im here once again in my store updating my blog... wats different this time was that every part of my body is aching like mad... This pain is utterly indescribable !! Its all becoz of the Nafa test i took yesterday !! A physical test which made me realize wat a weakling i am... Thanx...........................

I think i embarass myself at the test... Totally crapz.... Hai... Worst part was the pull up... u all must understand that girl's pull up is much easiler than the guys wan... So i happily see keelin the the other guys do the pull up thinking...

"Chicken feet lah... Can easily get above 5 lor... Wat is pull up man !! Plus i will be doing girls's wan... Ha!! Easy..."

Hai............... Damn..... when its my turn.. i could only do 3 !! Yes !! T.H.R.E.E !!! im a disgrace to human kind... see lah.. talk big somemore lah... hai...x3...

k.. next was the 2.4 run... The only section which i was totally not looking forward to...... On my way down to the track... All i can think of was...

"die lah... this time surely die wan...."

So.. the whistle went off and 40 over ppl start running... cannot believe it.. starting only i was already all the way to the back... totally unacceptable... as i was running... i couldn help looking at the Dragon Boat team... The guys were all so fit.. woooo.. cannot take it.... kk.. back to the topic...

After running abt half a marathon(ok.. im exaggerating...), aloy run past me...

"U left how many rounds?" i asked... hoping for a answer that shows im not as slow as i thought i was...

"last lap already !!" he replied... flashing his unbelievable cute and charming smile!! God is unfair... hahha..

Thanx... my timekeeper just told me i still have 3 more rounds... Great.. Just great... hai..

Finally.... i was doing my last lap... half way through the finishing line... From across the field.. that idiot timekeeper shouted...

"No: 7(thats me !!) u can stop running already.... times up !!!" infront of SO many ppl he shouted like that... crapz.. i hate him.. but... to show my good sportsmanship... i finish my six rounds... HUMF !!

this Nafa is totally shitty through out !! but.. at least i participated.... so im still proud of myself !! Hahhaha... Anyway, im a girl.. So it doesnt matter whether i pass or not... it doesnt affect me much.. Kee lin.. if u are reading this....

TOO BAD FOR U !!! wahahahahha....

One more thing... i ont be staying at this mac for too long le.. cant say why first coz its not confirm... but as soon as everything is confirm... i'll let u guys know k?

Peace out !!

HAIZ.....
i went for an interview today... I think it didnt went too well.. haizzzz... i feel so damn low morale now... SHIT !! why cant money just fall from the sky??? Dream on maine.. dream sweet...

Kee lin accompanied me there.. but didnt went up coz he said he was not wearing anything presentable... that leaves me wondering......... When did he ever wore something presentable???? kekekek.. joking dude... no offence.. hahahh.

So i went up feeling a little nervous... No matter wat this was my first interview ma... i went striaght to the front desk and took the application form... i hated filling up those stupid yet useless piece of ****... after returning the application form, i went back to the couch to wait..

I waited.......

And waited....

Wat the fuck !! when is it my turn ?!! it seems forever man !! During the waiting process, i smsed some ppl to keep myself occupied... Namely, Keelin(whos downstairs waiting for me), jonah and aloyious... I also found out that lifen also went for the exact interview just mins beore i reached !! cindy was also working there... small small world man...

Then it was my turn...

I was so freaking nervous... One man took out a damn complicated drawing and ask....

"Can u please tell me the dimension from this point to that point?" The bloody marking is damn small lor... He thinks i got x ray eyes is it????!!!

Haiz... Sad to say.. i cant answer... Should have listen in class... crapz.... Anyway... the whole interview lasted for abt 20 mins and at the end of it....

"hmmm.. anything u want to ask, shirmaine?" the lady ask.. come to think of it.. i didnt really catch her name.. wow.. how clever shirmaine... haiz....

"Can i kill all of u?" i thought of saying... But this foolish phrase may leave me dead so i better not try.. hahhaha...

"Nope..." i just replied sweetly cum smiling... (for yr info, this smile kill many guys before ok !! hahah)

So i just took my stuff, thank them for their time and walked out of the room.... Hopefully its not as bad as i thought it was.. But its over, so no use brooding over spilled milk... but.... ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, these few days been really stressful for me... dun understand why is god always fooling ard with my life !! so confusing.... wat to do in order not to hurt anyone?? haiz... my life is always so complicated... Why me !!!! Kee lin say... Be contented maine... but how then is counted contented? someone enlighten me plz.... haiz...

I/ll be ging back to school tml for the Nafa test with keelin... I cant run, i cant jump, i cant do pull up and not forgetting i cant do sit up.. why the hell i want to go??? beats me... oh well.. just hope i dun make a fool out of myself tml...

Cheerz...

Hmmm...
Recently theres alot of ppl post in my tagboard with some really unglam words... i want to apologize for deleting them coz i really dun wish to get into anymore unnecessary situations... Furthermore, i dun want ppl to get upset reading such stuffs. becoz i read one before and it hurt me really bad.. But its ok.. i cant change how ppl think of me.. neither do i care anymore...

Actually, can say that im protecting someone ba.. Even how much he changed, he's still someone i loved so much before... So... im sorry guys if u are unhappy that i delete the posts... i appreciate u ppl backing me up but i dun want the situation to worsen alright? hope u understand..

I was talking to shida the other day... We were talking abt rearing dogs... Becoz our store is a so-called dog store... peepz of BECC should know why.. hahahah...

K.. back to the topic... So i was telling her abt a debate between my mum and my dad... this was wat happen...

Mummy says: " daddy, if in the future, u got a chance to keep a dog, would u clean his private part whenever it urine??" (this topic came up becoz we were discussing one of my aunt as she clean her dog "there" whenever it do his business)

Looking at her in an unbelievable stare.. Daddy says:"Then wat is billy(my dog)? Is he a pig ????"

Hahahahahahhahahahahhaha................... it was so hilarious man.. I was laughing my ass off at the back seat of the car... Gosh... My mum can be so "slow" at times... Hahahhaah.....

Goshhh...
Wat a weekend.... I had a really wonderful birthday.. Thanx to all my frenz that took out their time to celebrate it for me... Thank u so much.. U guys made my 20th birthday a reason to remember...
3 different celebrations with 3 different groups of frenz.. I have so many pics to posts but due to some unforseen cirumstances.. i could only post them next week.. So look out for it k?

Ok.. back to the celebration.. First up was on the 16th sept.. i met keelin, jonah, chengjia and jac for a Kbox seesion at marina square... I have to admit that the place was very nice... the lighting and all was good.. plus... Ade is working there. therefore i got a discount plus many many free stuffs... hahahah... ok.. i sound cheap skate.. kekek...

I was utterly amazed by ah girl's(Cheng jia) vocal... goodness.. the can pull off a jay chou song without breaking a word... i didnt know he could sing that well... Never judge its book by its cover... hahaha...

Jonah was all along well known for his singing... His singing could melt every girl's heart... Try harder jo, then maybe next time u could melt mine too... kekek... We sang a duet.. the song *xuan ze* (choice)... Honestly speaking.. i feel so stupid when i sang it with him... why? well... Simply becoz He sound like an angel whereas me...... i sound like a freaking toad.. sad.. hahah..

Me, keelin and jac was just trying to act professional to match the other 2... hahahha... after a while... jac suddenly say...

"Birthday how can no liquor"

This is when my nightmare begin........

"u want tiger or house pour?" she ask sweetly...

"Can dun want? Later i still got to go out leh.." was my reply...

then kee lin, jonah joined in... " wat u think?"

Fine !! i lose.... hahah

Then first came the volka 7 up... not too bad coz they there was only a little volka in it... waste my money !! Then after finishing the jar.. jonah chipped in...

"shall we order more?"
Then without me approving, they picked up the phone and ordered a jar of tiger !! Thanx man... u guys are the "best" !! hahh..

Finishing ths jar, they ordered another one !! im not a very good drinker u see.. compare to those 3... im only a peanut.. I try looking at ah girl for help... he just said..

"sorry cannot help u.... later got to play soccer...."

Wow... Thats wat frenz are for isnt it... crapz.. hahahha....

By the 3rd glass my head became heavy already... i think i start blabbering nonsense... i remembered going to toilet alot of times.. accompanied by mr jonah coz i cant make it there alone... hahaha... i think i look stupid...... hehe..

I make sure they will send me to my frenz later then i continued drinking... But first time i didnt vomit.. hence.. i can see improvement.. hahaha... After that, we took a slow walk to the MRT station... As they promise.. keelin and jo send me to marina south to meet my frenz.. they better !! or i will hate them.. hahaha...

After that i met ash, angeline, angela and sheila... We went to eat seafood buffet there.. The place is so packed !! We had a fun time cutting and cleaning the live crab.. Although its freaking smelly but it was fun.... Like usual.. we were taking lots of pics.. posing here and there... hahah... the pics says it all.. so i will post it asap k?

words cant descrbe how i feel.. Really thankful that i have this groups of friends.. each and everyone of them is important to me.. i love u all so much !!!

Thank so much for a wonderful day !!

On the 09/09/05,

We celebrated Sheila's Bday At Party World At Cuppage Building..

Had a wonderful time...

Enjoy the pics !!

Me and Angela posing nicely for the camera...

Once we take out the cam, we live in the world of our own..

Hahhaah..
This shot was suppose to be acting cute...

Well, looks like we failed..

We are just too cute to act.. Hahahah..

Angeline said this picture looks as though we are mother & daugther...

Wat u think????

Im just too cool to be true... Hahahha...

Group Picture !!! robin (sheila's darling) was our camera man.. So he was not included..

Hehehhe...

Me & the Birthday Girl...

Happy 20th Birthday girl..

Muackz....

Thats all for now peepz...

Next party !! Shirmaine Seow's Bday !!! wooooo...

Cant wait !!! Going to have a busy busy weekends... Yeah...

Just so glad to be shirmaine man... Hahhaha...

hmmm.. so.. im back here.. in my store updating my blog..
Had a really busy weekend so didnt really have the time to update..
Unlike any normal people, my free time is only when im at work..
hahahah...

Just recieved a call from Kee lin..
The black eye pea concert tix are sold out !!!
Left the damn ex wan..
Which i dun think i could afford after my Bday celebration...
So damn sad..............
Hai.. really looking forward to that concert...
Missed it last year...
Oh well...
Somethings are just fated...
Sniff.. sniff...

Its ok... I will make full use of that day anyway..
Heheheh...
Got to call lionel now to apologize...
Hang up on him becoz im pissed off at the news...
hehehe...

Will update soon with all the pics i took at Sheila's party...
Till then...
Ciaoz....

I recieve a tag from pan... Gal, if u can tell how i feel by a blogskin then u are damn good.. choosing that blogskin its becoz i like the pictures of the bear.. Not becoz im lonely my dear.. i have everything i need now... dun assume u know everything ok? And dun worry... i can live without ril.. im old enough to think... as for u.. concentrate on yr studies alright? cheerz....

So... Back to my reality... All along i thought today was mid autumn festival.. But my sister and my mum hit me back to the fact.. ITS NOT TODAY MEI !! okok... so i got the wrong idea.. big deal.. hehehe.... So at least there is something more to look forward to... isnt it? hahaha..

Tml is kee lin's bday... A group of us are going out to eat then catch the movie The Cave... hopefully its good... or i'll be wasting my $$$$$$ !!! Hahahah.. After that i got to rush down to town to celebrate Sheila's bday.. But no worries.. Coz my lionel will be fetching me... hehheeh... He's always there for me no matter wat happen..

I went to pass lionel's mum mooncakes yesterday.. She's so stunned... hahhaa... But she's happy though.. i hope.. We talk alot abt life, food, frenz... She a damn good cook i must admit.. that leaves me thinking........... Why my mum turn out like that? hahaha.. im just kidding... i love my mum nevertheless... muackz mummy....

Happy Birthday To Me !! YEAH !!! Its my lunar birthday today... Hmmm.. according to the lunar calender.. im suppose to be 21 this year.. Hahaha.. wow.. thats old....
So.. i came early today to work due to some problems encountered during my last night closing... hai... can cry... I need to do some shiity report... When i entered the store.. i announced to shida that it was my lunar bday today...

"So.. wat do u want? U want me to sabo you or hantum(beating) u?" she resorted...

Thanx girl.. A simple "happy bday" would be fine..... hai... sometime ppl can be so unfeeling... but its ok.. we then shared a nice large twister fries and a large coke... actually sharing food with someone is much enjoyable than eating it alone.. provided u sharing food with yr frenz lah.. if not.. wat the heck... hahahah...
Tml will be a tiring day for me.. meeting keelin early in the morning to climb bt timah hill.. then going to buy some stuffs, after that got to go back store to do some paper work... There goes my off day........... hai... but its okay.. i like to be busy, busy, BUSY !!!! hahha..
Friday, i'll be having and outing with my sistas.. celebrating sheila's bday... looking forward to it !! hopefully will be able to take many pics... with lionel's digital cam.. soon it will be mine though.. hahahhah... Talking abt digital cam.. My sister change her mind abt buying me digi cam for my bday... so sad.. but its okay... kkz.. till next blog... ciaoz...

Suddenly got out of bed today deciding to change my blog skin.. Its time or a new change in everything.. Although im not so used to it.. hahah.. i have to admit that kee lin is one damn good friend.. whenever i need someone to accompany me he will be there.. Thanx Kee lin..Actually im not quite happy with my new blogskin, shall we go back sch one day to use the wireless network again? hahaha...

Went to watch The Longest Yard yesterday... Finish work at 3.30 then rush for the 4.15 show.. Hahaha.. Lucky it was entertaining, if not a bet i'll be asleep in the cinema.. so freaking tired... hehe.. Stone Cold Steve Austin from WWF starred as one of the guards in that movie.. he so god damn fit !!! Hes getting more charming as he aged... hai... soooo MAN... cannot tahan... When i look at the person beside me.. (which is lionel... how sad... hahah..) The movie worth 4 stars.. Next movie to catch!! Herbi !!!

Went to cine for dinner on sat after work.. at pastamania.. one of our frenz bday.. i ordered creamy chicken.. didnt taste as good.. me, ralph and terence ordered the same dish only different pasta.. ralph and me cant finish ours.. but terence was enjoying digging himself to the dish.. kekek.. in the end.. he finish mine too.. this cousin of mine can really eat wor.. hahaha... After that i went straight home.. coz i was really tired already.. My dear lionel send me home.. obviously !! like he have a choice.. hahaha...

Anyway, looking forward to this wed.. me, keelin and zhi hao going to conquer bt timah hill again !! Till then...
Ciaoz......

These few days of work is damn FUCKED up !!
Wa lau... Breakfast sales up to $1K man...
When normally its only half of that..
Thanks to the Teacher's day sch holiday..
Idiot...
Run the store until can cry...
Today short of 2 crew somemore..
And i fell hard on my eh eh(mu bum) at counter front just now !!..
So damn embarrassing................
All becoz of Tan Zhi Sheng !!
Lets not talk abt it anymore...
Hahaha...

So, today while at work...
I saw this butch...
She is so god damn cute !!!
I keeping looking at her..
I think she noticed it..
Thats a good thing isnt it?
Hahaha..
I quickly smsed my best pal (Tan Kee Lin )telling him abt this incident...
I think he is shocked..
Coz he replied...

" R u serious? hahah.. U turning lesbo?"

"If she wants me, I dun mind..." was my reply..

Hmmm... Lets leave the rest of the sms conversation out..
Coz its not very pleasant..
Hahahah...

Yesterday, I finally did my resume !!
Send out quite a few of applications..
Hopefully they will contact me soon...
Learn to make pizza too !!
Taught by lionel's mum...
But my pizza dough didnt raise a bit !!
Wonder where went wrong...
In the end we all have to eat the topping only..
Im sorry everyone..
Will promise to do better next time !!
Hahahah...

Heard the song If U're Not The One just now...
Brought back many memories..
Couldn help singing along with the radio...
This song means alot to me..
Becoz it describes my relationship..

This song never fail to bring back everything to me..
Hope that its not only me feeling this way..
Hahahha..
Maybe watching a movie later..
Been going out everyday nowadays..
Hopefully my dad doesnt get pissed off..
Becoz this is only the beginning of me having fun..
Wooohooo...
Hahahah...
Till next time...
Keep smilling everyone !!!

Guess my curiosity got the better of me again...
This time...
I found out he lied abt having a blog...
Honestly..
It hurts...
But then again...
I dun have the right to feel hurt anymore...

I wont confront him...
I wont pester him coz it will only make matters worse then it is now..
He will only avoid me more...
He have his reasons to keep it from me..
And I respect that..
Watever he do im sure he just doesnt want me to get hurt....

I love him and i will respect him in every way i can..
I dun want to pressurizes him as his NS is coming...
All i can do now is to see him from afar and hope that he's happy now..
Loving the person is to see him happy even if he's not with u...
I understand fully now...

Dun work too hard..
Take care of yr health..
Watever happens, u are still important to me..
Take care..
All the best...

I recieved a sms from one of my ex colleague yesterday..
She had given birth to a baby boy @ 1733hrs !!!
Wow... I'm so happy for her...
Had been a long time since i last saw her..
Really glad she informed me...
Last year i just attended her wedding...
With ril of coz...
Time really past so fast..
Been one year already...
She got a bb and i got a break up..
Hahaha.. wow.. Wat a way to compare isnt it...
Anyways....
Congratulation Ros !!
U did wonderful !! Proud of u gal...

Recieving that sms made me have a mix feelings of happiness and sadness..
Im of coz happy for her...
At the same time..
I missed him again..
Coz i thought of the day we went to her wedding together..
Its on the 7th aug...
That was the day we went to out to celebrate our 1st anniversary too...
I even told him...
"I also want a grand wedding !! I dun care !!"..
He just give me the "Wokie" look..
hahaha...
haila.. i miss him...

Ok.. Back to the present..
IM FALLING SICK !!
The flu bug had caught me........
Of coz lah... 2 person sleeping in the room is sick..
Im sleeping in a room full of virus flying ard...
I sound like a man now..
Hahahah.. Thats wat ril always say me when im sick...
Unfeeling creature..
Hahhah...

I cannot be sick...
So many appointments waiting for me !!!
Got to work somemore....
Shit.....
Lionel... I need yr longan tea !!
Quick !!!
Hahahha...

Wah... Been so long since i last blogged...
So many things to update...
Lets skip the nagging parts..
Been busy planning stuffs nowadays...
So many things to look forward now..
Firstly... This Friday... Got to wash lionel's car just to use his com.. SHIT !!
Lots of things to be done that day too...
Secondly... Kee lin Bday !!!!!! 9th of sept..
Thirdly... Sheila's Bday !!! 10th of sept...
Foruthly... Zan's Bday !!! 16th of sept...
Then comes The Princess Bday !! Thats me !!! 17th of sept !! turning 20 !!
I just cant wait !!!
Fifth... mummy bday... 22nd sept...
Sixth... THE BLACK EYE PEA CONCERT !! Im going.. im going.. yeah yeah.. im going..
Next... Lionel's commission parade.. hmmm i think 2 oct...
After that is Lionel's commission ball !! im his partner u see.. *wink*
Then comes my new job.. hopefully...
Soon after !! KL trip with the group !!!
Wooohhhoooo !! Cant wait !!

We only live once...
Make full use of it...
I learnt it in a hard way..
But who cares..
Its over now...
Although i cant lie saying i dun miss him..
But come to think of it...
Why miss him when he dun even miss u?
Waste yr brain cells only..

KEE LIN !!! I WILL SURVIVE !!!
Seriously... the love between frenz deserve to be cherish more..
Becoz they wont leave u for bullshit reasons..
And they will stay by my side when im at my lowest peak..
Zhi hao and Kee lin accompany me at work from 9am-3.30 pm leh..
Follow me climb Bt Timah Hill..
Listen to all my sorrows..
Just to make me feel better...
So sweet..
Appreciate it guys...

Ash did a wonderful job too..
She accompany me to Lot 1 yesterday, just to face the reality..
Listen to me nag and nag and nag..
Hahahah..
She even say im much prettier now !!
Compliments are the best gal !!

Of coz.. Not forgetting Lionel...
Wat comes ard goes ard...
I learnt it already...
Thank u for being there...
Thanx for all the "grill words into my brain" session..
Make me understand that there is no win or lose situation in relationship..
Just pure fate..
So wat is mine is mine..
If its not mine then wat the heck !!
No use forcing...
And to wake up in the middle of the night just to help me through it..
Also to lionel's mum who spoil me with a fantasic dinner last friday..
hahahaha..

Time will heal everything...
I have a long road infront of me..
Wat past is past..
Ppl dun bring happiness to u..
U bring happiness to yrself..

Now all im looking forward is to have fun !!
So many parties coming up..
Not forgetting mine..
Thought this year i could spent my bday with him..
Coz he promised to make up to me this year..
he had chicken pox on my 19th bday u see..
Hahaha...
Oh well...
Its all fated !!

Love is so weird isnt it?
It can change instantly without warning...
To let go really must take lots of determination..
Promises made to me can be broken so easily...
Am i still suppose to be crying...
Coz i cant help filling my eyes with tears now and then..

I missed him but in return,
Do he miss me?
Or i dun even cross his mind at all...
I have to face reality that this is it..
Theres no way we are going back together..
Coz in his heart.. theres already someone else to replace me..
Am i that insignificant that she can replace me that easy?

To know whether he still loves me or not doesnt matter anymore..
Becoz its over...
Thank u for loving me once..
Although u never keep yr promise to hold on.. I did..
I hold on to u till the end...
No matter wat ppl say i still loves u..
But all i can do now is love u as a friend..

I not keen into getting myself into a relationship now..
But i will accept another again..
Theres ppl still loving me even if u dun...
I will move on..
Im sorry my love is not strong enough to keep u...
Im sorry it lasted only two years..
But two wonderful years..

All im asking now is not to appear infront of me with her..
I dun think i can take it...
Im not as strong..
If u ever love me before...
Dun hurt me anymore..
My love for u is true...
So true...

I will slowly forget u...
Becoz theres nothing for me to remember anymore..
I will step again on paths we walk together once..
This time.. im sure i will be smiling instead of crying..
I love u...
I really do...
Take care my love...
There is a goodbye for us...
Now it is...

Helloo ppl......
Yeah.. Yeah..
I finished my work already...
Getting better each day..
hahahah...

So while waiting for the closing aunties,
I can update my blog...
Hehehe...
I was actually quite sleepy..
But after drinking my self made Mocha.. (taught by shida)
Im so refresh !!
That leaves me thinking.......
How am i going to sleep later?
Hmmm...

I accomplish quite a few things today...
I rearrange My workplace's storeroom, Chiller and Freezer..
Which is not in my job scope..
And I did filtering of the oil vats !!
So proud of myself...
Hahhaha...
Didnt want to sit ard and start thinking of unnesscary things..

Went to PS earlier on for lunch...
Actually... Town doesnt have much pizza hut isnt it?
Hmmm... Not as popular as Macdonald and KFC and long john ba...
Going for foot therapy tml..
Hope i dun chicken out...
Hahahah...
Will let u guys know how it goes alright?

I ask one question in my previous blog..
Would u choose to be with the one u love?
Or would u be with the one who loves u...
I choose to be with the one i love...
but sadly...
The person i love didnt choose to be with me...
Oh well..
Things dun always go yr way...

QUESTION !!
Can a couple be frenz after breaking up?
Hmmm.. i dun think so...
Matters will turn ugly..
Like in my case..............

*Yawn*
Im still at work now...
But im done with my job..
Waiting for the aunties to finish theirs before i can go..
Im suppose to help out if i finish early but wat the heck..
Im tired..
Hahaha..

Come to think of it..
Today is the first time i finsh my job so fast..
Hmmm.. wonder if i missed out anything..
Should be ok lah..

So sleepy..
Didnt get enough sleep yesterday..
Reached home ard 2..
Closing till 1245 but talk cock with ming and sheng till ard 1 plus 2
then ming send me home..
heheh..
then morning 8 plus wake up already..
Go sch to submit my report..
My last day going to sch already..
At last... I graduated from Ngee Ann Poly !!
Thats it for my studies..
Maybe will continue but at the moment..
I DUN THINK SO !!
hahaha...
Np brought me many happy and sad memories...
But its over now..

Lionel is back !! he's fetching me for supper later..
Another talk cock session.. hahah
going to be real tired tml..
Becoz going out in the early afternoon before work...
3 days closing can cry man..

Im going to be very busy with appointments from today..
Going keep myself busy so i wont think too much..
The only way to start a new..
But i still miss him...
Hopefully my pain will lessen as the days goes pass..

Sadly... I have been made a fool again...
Yup... A big idiot fool...
I choose to love the person..
But now i realize that it was all just a joke..
Im just a stupid joke in his eyes...
Wat more can i say......

Do anyone know how it feels to be ignore by the person u love most?
I can tell u.. Its fucking painful...
Its like time is fooling u while u wait for his reply..
I just want to know wat i mean to him actually..
But i guess it will always remain a mystery..

Im in pain now..
Trying to forget is painful..
If u love that person so much..
Would u bear to see her in such pain?
The answer is no..

But since im suffering like fuck now..
Obviously, he doesnt love me anymore..
Then why am i still hesitating?
I had been made the laughing joke of the century,
By the man i love most...
Thank u shahril...

I cried again today...
Till my eyes are so heavy..
Then wats next?
I cant go on like this...
If theres really a god up there..
Please end my misery...

Shahril... I cant tell u how i feel anymore..
Stop ignoring me..
It hurts badly..
Im so tired already...

Suddenly, i woken up from a dream...
So.. After all these months,
I finally realize im such a pain in the ass..
I wont be anymore..
Things said cant be unsaid...
Wat is done cannot be undone...

My world dun rotate ard one person..
My world rotates ard ME..
Its time to pack up my feelings...
My love, my emotional and move on..
Coz theres nothing for me to stay on anymore..

i wont say i hate him..
Coz i know i wont..
I wont say i dun love him..
Coz thats a lie..
Wat i can say is..
I stop hoping..
I stop wishing we were back together..
And i will leave him alone..
If thats wats he wants..
Then that shall be it...

He had live on with his life perfectly..
Having good times with his good time friends..
Its my turn now..
Shirmaine is not a nusiance to anyone..
Never will be...

Things i need to get back from him..
1. My time
2. My tears
3. My heart
4. My trust
5. My love

When someone changes his heart for u..
He's not coming back..
I have learnt it in a painful way..
I wish him all the best in his life..
Our story has ended here..
I dun want to be a fool anymore...

Im beautiful.. Im beautiful..
Its true..
U saw my face, in a crowed place..
And i dun care wat u do..
Coz u'll never be with me...

If u're not the one...
Im not anymore...

Today im being very emotional again..
I heard some things that i just couldn accept from him..
I know it isnt my business anymore..
And i shouldn interfere..
Im sorry...

Two person that once shared one life,
Suddenly live in two completely different lifestyle now..
But i cant blame anyone..
Sometimes things just happen without a reason..

I miss those days when we play in the rain..
Days when we spend all our money on movies..
Days when we spend the whole day playing at the arcade
Thrashing ppl in Puzzle Bubble, but got thrash instead.. hahah..
Days that we just spend time alone with each other..
I miss cooking noodles for u..
Although u would always nag me for being untidy..
I miss u holding me close telling me u love me..
I miss everything..

To say that im not waiting for yr call or sms..
Its a lie..
A big fat lie...
Everytime my phone ring, i wished it was u..
But to get disapponted each time..
Nobody know how i feel inside..
Nobody..........

I promise to move on..
I promise to get the FARK over it..
But it will all go back to square one when im alone..

B.. I miss u... Alot...
Take care..
Maine loves u alot...
Even till now...

Anyway... at least there still something to look forward to..
Lionel called me just nw..
He's back from his survivoral course..
Will be coming back from brunei on Monday..
Thats good news...
Missed having him round.. hahah..
See u on monday nel..

Yes !!! i finally got the skirt which i eyed on last friday..
So happy.. I bought it with two tops to go along with it..
I dun have any tops to go along ma.. so one shot i get together lor..
hehhe...

I saw this Espirt watch with kee lin at JP which is so bloody nice...
(although its pink in colour which is not actually one of my favourite colours)
But I LOVE IT !!! it cost $239 !!! goodness....
Should i or shouldn i get it? hmmmm...
HOW ?? why am i so broke?? sad......
oh well.. thats life...

Actually i have lots of pics to post but then..
im at work now u see..
and the computer here sucks !!
hahah.. so i'll upload it soon alright?

So i spent the early afternoon with kee lin..
Talking abt life and wats happening so far..
We both conclude that life is all abt waiting..
We wait for bus,
We wait for class,
Waiting to graduate,
We wait for love,
We wait for happiness
Waiting for marriage...
Shitty but true..
Wat if i dun want to wait anymore?
So Sick and Tired of waiting....

Suddenly, nothing matters to me anymore..
I just take everything as it is..
No point being a fool in life..
I dun want to be a fool no more...
My Life... My Rulez... My Way...

Yesterday after work.. i rushed down to town to get my sis's present..
My dear ashely accompanied me..
Ash.. U are the best !!! Muackz..
And yes ! i got it... I got my sis a LV card holder.. $290 !!
Very dried up now already..
but its for my sister.. my one and only sister...
wat to do...
Damn.. should have get the imitation wan instead...
Hahahha.. kidding..

Went to cine after that coz i suddenly have a mad crave for Chocolate cake..
At the cafe.. there's this girl sitting at the next table..
She keep playing ard with her hair..
And for yr info.. her hair isnt the silky type OK !!
Anyway, wat worst was she and her bf keep hugging each other..
For heaven sake.. GET A ROOM !!
Ok.... im jealous... SO !!
Hai..

So all we could do was take pic of us to keep our minds to ourselves instead of googling at them !!
Ash has a bf dun worry.. only me.. hai x2... haha
But im fine... Here's a pic of us at the cafe..
U look great ash... Dun worry... kekek..
I look funny though.. hmmm...



After finishing the delicious chocolate cake (which i only took ard 3 bites to finish it)..
We went to shop ard.. I saw this amazing skirt which i took a instant liking on !!
Damn.. Few reason i didnt get it..
1. i have no time to take a good look at it.. (was rushing off to a dinner date with my parents)
2. i dun have the money !!!
BUT !! im getting it next week coz i really really like it...
And most importantly........... Im getting my pay next week !! woohoo..
SHOPPING !! SHOPPING...
Plus.. BH (ash bf) kanna confine in camp.. so i have her all to myself !! yeah..
Im sorry i sound bad... BH, u wouldn mind right??? heheh..


So by 6 i have to leave town and make my way to Great World City to meet my parents..
My dad expect me to be there by 630 and when he says i have to.. I HAVE TO !!
but at 620 im still waiting for cab behind taka..
And u should see the queue.. 8pm i still will be waiting there lor..
Wat the fark !!
Starting to panic liaoz..
So i did wat most ppl would do..
I booked a cab..
Soon.. the cab was here.. but the booking fee was $4... and fee keep increasing..
When i reach Great World.. The total cab fare was $9.20 !!!!!
From town mind u... Which was like 5-7 min away?
It was farking ex lor...
In the end.. my parents was not here until nearly 7..
Should have taken my own sweet time..
DARN !!!! ANGRY !!



This is my Darling Billy Boy...
One day if he ever leave me..
I'm going to go insane..
I love him lots and lots and lots...
And yup.. He's Blind...
But still as adorable.. like me... hahah..

As per promise.. this is the pic of my mum's bday present...
Which i didnt have to pay a thing..
hahaha.. i sound like a cheap skate.. how unglam..
Nice statue isnt it? hmmm...

Im at work now and updating my blog...
I know im not suppose to be but...
Wat the heck... hahaha..
I actually have a badminton session with my frenz today but
Last minute kanna call back to work..
Sorry kee lin.. treat u eat Mac breakfast next time..
hahaha...

Last night... my mum opened her bday present..
A birthday present is suppose to be opened on the bday date itself isnt it?
Her bday is on the 22 of SEPT !!! wat the hell.. some ppl just dun have patience..
Hahhaha.. the present was wraped in a HUGE box which is almost half of me..
Ok.. im short... so wat !! hahah
So... it was placed on the floor actually..
her excuse to open it was... " if i dun open it, billy(my dog) will urine all over it.."
Kaoz.. just becoz my dog cant talk, everybody just love to use him as an excuse..
And he just look pahetic at us as though he was wrongly accused..
Hai... Poor Billy Boy...

Anyway... The present was a Statue of the Laughing Buddha...
For those who dun know...
He's actually a Chinese god whom always look very happy with his big belly sticking out..
I actually have a pic of it but i cant upload it onto the blog !!
Oh well.. My workplace Computer is platium 1.. wat u expect !!
Hahhaha.. i'll try to upload it later on when i get home..
Look out for it alright???
On the way i'll be putting my billy's pathetic pic too.. kekekek..

I want to thank my sis too.. coz the present was from the 3 of us...
Namely, me, my sis and neils.. but i dun have to pay a thing !!! hahaha..
its always this case.. i'll never have to pay for anything if its my sis buying..
Thats wat sisters for... hahah..
I LOVE U SIS !!! Muackz....

Im going to buy her present after work...
Hopefully its not too late..
Crossing my fingers......

Oh ya... and btw, i watched Bewitched yesterday..
Sad to say the two bosses of M&R PteLtd had an arguement over the rating..
M given 3.5 (its nicole kidman for heaven sake)
Whereas R give it 0.5 - 1.. which is totally unacceptable...
R is just being bias........ hahah

Im back !!
Finally... Its abt time isn it?
Hahhah..
Wat a weekend man...
Dun think u guys wanna know abt it..
U all will heartpain for me.. kekeke...

I change my tag board so its much neater and clearer now..
NO MORE COMLPAINS HOR !! hahah..
But...... i lost all my tags !!! so sad... sniff..sniff..
This year the NDP wasnt as amazing right?
I was walking along the "closed area" yesterday..
Only saw army tanks driving along the road..
And they closed the whole area !! very inconvenient leh...
Anyway... Wat so interesting abt it man ???
But still.. Singaporean still went to see see, look look...(kipo !!)
Cannot say ppl.. i also got go.. ( -_-") hahah..

Actually my main objective was to see the fireworks..
In the end i went to watch Charlie and The chocolate factory instead..
hahaha.. doesnt link right?
Oh well.... too crowded lah.. nearly fainted once due to over crowdedness(is there such a word? hahha)..
So didnt really wanted to go through that experience again..
Btw, the rating for the movie was 3.5...
rated by M&R pte ltd... hahah...

My darling sister is celebrating her 23th birthday this sunday (14/08)...
And i still have no idea wat to get her !!
Help Me !! Shit... Last minute again..
Everytime like that.. hai...

Question !!!
When things happen once without explanation.. its call coincidences..
But when things happen again more than once without explanation... wat is it called?
Is it just pure luck again? Or fated? think abt it.. hmmmm...
tough one.....

Hey guys.. I wont be blogging for the time being...
Gone through alot yesterday..
Fucked up day..
Will be back once i feel better alright?

Ril, i hate u for putting me through this..
For yr information.. I dun have to choose between u or my family in the future..
Coz the fact is that i had already chosen u..
Just that u chose to let me go...
U are the one who told me never to give up on us..
Look whos contradicting now...
I hope u are happy now..
Dun ask me to be happy anymore coz shahril..
U took my happiness away..
U give up on me.. i didnt give up on u...
I hate u...
And i'll NEVER forgive u..
Goodbye...


I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Because your presence still lingers here,
And it wont leave me alone...

These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase...
When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears.
And i've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.

You used to captivate me,
By your resonating light.
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along.

Tick-Tock... Tick-Tock.... Tick-Tock...
This is how my house clock go... Every second seems forever...
Why does it take so long just to cross 12 o'clock..
But when the clock strike 12, that is when my heart will sink to the bottom..
The day i was avoiding finally came knocking on my door...
05/08 is the date...
My supposingly 2nd year anniversary..

I keep asking myself.. why is it only me feeling this way... dun he feel it too?
Why am i the only one going through this fucking feeling?
How can he enjoy his life so fucking much and im here crying myself to sleep?
Why? Why me?
Few months ago we were still planning wat to do on this date..
Ha !! look at us now..
How nice....

Im suppose to get over him by now..
Im suppose to be enjoying my life by now...
Im suppose to start looking for new love by now..
Im suppose to start flirting with guys now..
Im suppose to open my eyes and look..
Like wat he is doing now....
But i cant.. i just cant...
Why must i be the one suffering?

How can i forget everything?
Wat must i do to be happy?

I must stand up again..
I must be strong...
I must show everyone i will be fine with or without him..
I must learn to be happy again..
Becoz no one will ever take yr happiness away..
Im Shirmaine and no one will ever bring me down !!

im here in a class that i dont belong in.. hahaha...
Im in one of my good pal's (kee lin) OPC class.. just sneak in and hopefully
dun get chase out by the lecturer.. hehe..
ps : theres this one guy that i used to look at.. he's in the class too..
How lucky can i get man... hahah..

On my way down from my project room.. i ran into jonah...
he finally changed his forever dirty cap into a new and improve billa cap..
Nice.......... hahah.. he also changed his glasses..
Wah... intend to change into a new person is it??? hahha..
funny looking but quite alright lah..

the 5th is coming up.. A day which i'll never forget..
Each day passing towards it suddenly go so slow....... so torturing...
I used to look forward to that day but not anymore..
Its a day which i now wish to delete from the calender but i cant..
oh well.. i'll just have bite my teeth and go through it..
everythings going to be just fine...

Lionel is in Brunei now.. Hopefully he's fine.. He have to go through
this training before becoming an officer in the army..
Im sure he's going to be alright... i guess...
i hope.....

Goodness.. I noticed that my blog for july is quite sad isnt it? Always abt him him and HIM !!
MAINE !!! Get the fark over it !!! Time to enjoy yr life and stop thinking.......
I will now i guess.. coz at the point of letting go.. i feel much lighter...
Hope the feeling is not temporary !! haahaha...

The song The One U Love by Glenn Frey.. Anyone heard of it before??
A question is asked in the song...
*Are u gonna stay with the one who loves u...
Or are u going back to the one u love...*
hmmmmm..... which will u guys choose???
To be with the person u love deeply or be with the person who loves u deeply??

Different ppl got different choice ba...
Most of them say.. Of coz will choose the person who loves u more lah... but then..
Will u be happy after that?
Or some ppl (like me !!) choose to be with the person they love..
But in the end, will they get the attention and love they needed from them??
Sometimes, loving someone so much is damn tiring...
Tough choice actually......

Life is all abt choices.. No choices then it wouldn be call life !!
Isnt it?

Feeling so pissed off now..
I have been ask not to come work today again becoz they wanna cut labour !!
Wat the FARK !!
I wake up so early to go work and one sms came and say..
Maine.. Today u off.. CB..
Oh well... part timers are like that lah..
Get used to it Maine !!

Can u actually love someone as a friend whom is actually yr ex???
How do u actually stop loving someone?
When u decided not to see or contact him anymore, u missed him terribly..
But when u get to see him.. u get disappointed coz he only treat u like a friend..
Wat to do to lessen the pain..
I get confuse at times.. thinking that i can do it..
I can treat him like a friend..
I cant.. Im trying... But i cant...
Can u stop loving someone whom u loved dearly for almost 3 years?
Wat actually am i waiting for?
For something that will never happen?
Or waiting for someone who doesnt love me anymore..
When will i wake up?

It hurts to know he doesnt want u back..
It hurts to know he doesnt need u back..
It hurts trying to not to hold on but actually is...
It just hurts so much...

When will i accept the fact that we are just friends?
When will i let go?
When will i stop loving him?
I dun know..
I really dun...

I wont ask him back anymore..
Coz i dun want to get disappointed..
But i will always be here if he turns back..
I still will..
I love him too much..
Why cant he love me like last time??

Let this be the last time im feeling this way...
Please.......

Wat if whatever u believe in for 2 years turn out to be a lie?
Wat if the love u cherish all these while turns out to be just sympathy?
Wat if all memories of u and him suddenly turns out blurish?
Wat if the person u really love actually doesnt love u as much as u expected after all?
Wat if within on night all yr dreams shattered into thousand pieces?
Wat if within one moment yr heart breaks into million pieces?
Wat if u wake up one morning knowing that the person u live for is not coming back to u?
Wat if......
Tell me... Wat if....
Wat will u do?
Welome To My Life.....
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"maine !! yr blog is so boring...." hmmm.. thats wat ril said to me yesterday..

Oh well.. its either u like it or not.. hahha..

Had i good day yesterday.. went out with him...

watched The Island at westmall..

The show was very good.. Ril give it 4.5 out of 5 bites.. u must understand that

Shahril is very picky in movies.......... So the show got to be good..

hahaha.. the theatre was

freaking cold !! i was shivering from head to toe inside..

we talk alot after that..

at the Kopi Roti Stall.. Goodness..

I must emphasis that the egg there doesnt taste like egg..

the bread doesnt taste like bread.. Needless to say anymore right?? hahah..

We discuss abt things.. abt each others life... but not abt us...

its forbidden u see.. keke..

But its ok.. as long as his happy... im happy...

My quote for today : Never start a relationship with a person out of any reason except love... There wont be any nice ending...

Ok.. lets talk abt my all time favourite book.. Harry Potter... I'm a big BIG fan of the book series.. As u all know that the 6th book has just publish in stores.. It hit the shelves on the 16th of july.. i didnt do advance booking becoz i was forbidden to by someone who thinks that advance booking is just wasting of cash.. hmpf.. but i dun mind !! haiz.. so still i heeded his advice and didnt place a booking.. when i was at westmall on the 18th to purchased it, i was praying damn hard for it... at last.. i laid my hands on my book !!!!! it costs $40.59.. its like my one day pay(pathetic).. but who cares.. hahha..

I spend the whole of next day staying at home reading it.. but wa lau... the ending sux man... The whole book was amazing but why dumbledore have to die !!! i almost cried reading it.. my sis thinks i'm mad becoz of that.. oh well.. sad.. now harry have no one to look up to.. in the 5th book his godfather died.. both his parents died when he was an infant.. now dumbledore.. wat is this world coming to !! got anymore suei than that not !! haiz... pity...

Its just a book maine..... get over it... wat the fark !! its my all time favourite leh... i have been waiting almost 2 years for this book then the ending dumbldore have to died... SHIT... hopefully the next book will have a better ending...

One of another unforgetable part of the book was when harry decided to break off with his gf ginny weasley(sister of ron weasley).. the reason.. he was afraid that whoever close to him will have a bad ending.. becoz in book 2 (chamber of secret), voldemort uses ginny to do evil stuff for him.. so he was afraid that harm may fall upon ginny again if they carry on being together.. WAT THE HELL IS HE THINKING OF ???!!! love is abt going through thick and thin.. Ginny was even prepared to stand by him... GUYS... always thinking watever they do is right.. cannot take it !! If u love somebody... STICK TO IT !!! harry may be a great wizard but he sux at relationship !!! oh well...

thats all for the 6th book... looking forward to the next book !!!