Tick-Tock... Tick-Tock.... Tick-Tock...
This is how my house clock go... Every second seems forever...
Why does it take so long just to cross 12 o'clock..
But when the clock strike 12, that is when my heart will sink to the bottom..
The day i was avoiding finally came knocking on my door...
05/08 is the date...
My supposingly 2nd year anniversary..

I keep asking myself.. why is it only me feeling this way... dun he feel it too?
Why am i the only one going through this fucking feeling?
How can he enjoy his life so fucking much and im here crying myself to sleep?
Why? Why me?
Few months ago we were still planning wat to do on this date..
Ha !! look at us now..
How nice....

Im suppose to get over him by now..
Im suppose to be enjoying my life by now...
Im suppose to start looking for new love by now..
Im suppose to start flirting with guys now..
Im suppose to open my eyes and look..
Like wat he is doing now....
But i cant.. i just cant...
Why must i be the one suffering?

How can i forget everything?
Wat must i do to be happy?

I must stand up again..
I must be strong...
I must show everyone i will be fine with or without him..
I must learn to be happy again..
Becoz no one will ever take yr happiness away..
Im Shirmaine and no one will ever bring me down !!