*Yawn*
Freaking sleepy today... I did had enough sleep last night, maybe its becoz of some stupid dream i had... The dream continued throughout the night man... killing me softly.... and slowly... i'm afraid to dream again... ok !! im exaggerating.. hahha... but still.. it was a horrible dream..

I dreamt of HIM.. yes him !! after so long... crapz... made me think of him again.. hai... oh well.. guess i dun have to worry much abt him now, since there's someone taking real good care of him.. *coughcough* hahha..

Think my boss purposely out to get me since im leaving this place... keep finding fault with me... Maine...... Endure... But wat the fuck !! leave me alone for heaven sake !!! Mind yr own business biyatch !! anyway...5 more days and im out of here... Honestly.. next week is my so called one week "rest" break.. but im like fully booked already.. no idea why... too popular i guess... hahaha...

Think i didnt mention it here before that im starting my new job on the 7 nov as an Engineering Asistant right?!! For those who is giving a questioning look now... WAT??!! see small me right?? think i will stuck at mac for the rest of my life right?? but too bad.... i got the job !! :op hahah.. during my last cousin's gathering, I announced to one of my cousin abt the news...

Maine : Quick congrat me !! Yr cousin here has got the post as an Engineering Asistant !!!"

Josie : " So?? Big deal...."

Maine : "Hey !! Hello !! its my first offical full time job leh.. Somemore can get such post is very the capable already hor.. can give some face.."

Josie : (smirking)" Plz lah.. U are only an Engineering Asistant... Not ASISTANT engineer hor.. Need to be so big headed meh... and.. since young when did i ever give u face? Never did.. Never will..."

Maine : "U wait !! One day i made sure i will be an Asistant Engineer !! "

Josie : "When that day come then that day talk... For now, talk to the hand coz the face doent want to talk to u..."

Maine : (speechless...)

Somehow i find no one love me in the Seow family... i feel so neglected.. (dropping tear)

FUCK !!! the sun is shinning brightly all around singapore today !! Aloysius just updated me with a sms saying that it is very VERY sunny over there at sentosa!!

Whereas Im still here in my store slogging away when everyone is having their tan !! FUCK FUCK FUCK !! damn pissed off.. these few days have been raining *meowmeow*, *woofwoof* & *oinkoink*... Why must it be sunny today... god is unfair........ shit !! hai..

Anyway, had a great time with the girls at Our Secret Garden resturant yesterday... took lots of pics.. i mean alot when i say alot man !! until i choose to be the one behind the camera instead of posing infront of the camera.. becoz its so embarassing... hahah..

One thing abt going out with them was, we never fail to tease one another, never fail to find laughter, never fail to take lots of pics... hahah... i enjoy their company alot... maybe its beocz we all know each other for so long thats why we have no restrictions within one another... Although we as a whole, are made out of different characters.. really different but i guess thats wat made us complete as a group ba... hahah...

hope to see them real soon again... love u girls to much !! muackz...

Sharon said.... "Dun always be happy too early...."

How freaking true... U see.. i was happily looking forward to my 2 weekends off isnt it... i was gloating at all my crews just few days ago... saying...

"ahahahahahha... i dun have to work this weekends but u guys have to... hahahah... too bad...."

So now... look who have the last laugh... all becoz of the dreadful sms i recieved from my boss yesterday............

"Maine... can u help me do opening on sat? im on MC for 2 days..."

Wat the fuck !! bad karma.......... so kids, this tell u not to laugh at ppl or u will not have a good ending... like me !! CB... hai.. just becoz im leaving here in a week time she have to do this to me right? ARGH !!! So there goes my sentosa outing... hai.... so sad... oh well.. thats life !!! crapz.. hope it rain on sat... becoz if the sun is shinning brightly on that day... and im cooped up in my store and not out on the sentosa beach.. i will cry my eyes out man !!

anyway.. my sister is angry with me AGAIN.. as usual.. nothing new.. hai.. i will not go through the incident now becoz its just too painful.. *sniffsniff*.. hahah.. . but hopefully she dun wont be pissed off for too long or i will have a hard time at home... cause her sarcism really gets to me at times... hai..

kk.. wanna leave my store soon already... my shift is over !! have to go home, get changed and meet the girls for dinner at bugis... was planning to stay out late tonight initally but now.... since i have WORK tomorrow.. its wiser to go home and rest early... SHIT !! ciaoz........

Went for a short business trip with my dad yesterday to JB.. Kinda crapy becoz all i did was having my butt glued to the seat for the whole journey... No shopping... No walkng around.. No anything.. But if the emperor(my dad) wants me to go, how the hell can i say no?? So... as i was happily singing along with the radio...

" bloody malaysian drivers !!" my dad suddenly shouted...

Wat happen was, there were two lanes heading towards the woodlands checkpoint... One lane for motorcycles and the other was for cars.. so anyone with the right mind knowing that they are driving a freaking car will have to queue in the lane for cars which happen to be on the right... honestly, dun give the reason u dun know which lane leads to which coz even my brother(who happen to be an idiot) can tell....

So.. wat the inconsiderate malaysian drivers did was... they drove on the motorcycle lane, and upon reaching the split junction, all of them try to cut in the queue into the car lane... they still have the cheek to signal that they wants to cut in.. HALLO !! do u think u ppl are doing the right thing?? crapz.. all of them drove really close to the car which was in the right lane so that the car do not have a choice but to give way... this is totally UNBEARABLE !! wat make things worse was...................................... some singapore cars did the same thing !! Kaoz... Asian.... KIASU !! pure disappointment.........

" Wa lau eh... They can drive until like that want meh, daddy?' i asked

"Seriously, theres no law here.. the system sucks too.." my dad reasoned...

Conclsion... Hai... Nothing more to say abt them....

So as we were getting back in a mood of a nice car ride... Singing, chatting, laughing etc... This fucking bus came speeding from the side, entering the expressway we were on.. Come on lor... Even though i failed my basic theory 3 times, i also know that u are not suppose to do that !! Lesson one..

"When u want to enter an expressway, u should make sure there will be no collison before picking up speed to follow the flow of traffic..."

NOT SPEED LIKE NOBODY FUCKING BUSINESS !! MOREOVER, IT IS A FREAKING BUS !! NOT A TINY MINI COOPER FOR HEAVEN SAKE !!

hai... no idea why i will fail my advance theory when all this ppl get to cruise on the road !! this is totally unfair... And last.. for the finale comment...

All this driver happen to be male drivers !! So think before u say... "haiya.. drive so slow.. must be a female driver..." HELLO !! at least we as female driver follow some thing call THE LAW !! last but not least.. guys are still labelled as CHAUVINIST PIGS !! No arguement needed... case closed.. hahah...

Im so looking forward to this two following weekends... Cause i have two straight weekends off... Do u know how rare it is to have such rest days when u work as a Floor Manager at mac... the chances is like never lor.. So im making full use of this weekend to have fun !!!

Tml we will be celebrating ralph birthday at Scarlet Hotel (which i have no idea where the hell is it)... Due to the fact that i have been out every time i have the chance recently, my dad is quite unhappy abt my plans tml... But who cares... i just have to "sa jiao" then surely can go liaoz.. hahha... but i practically begged him this afternoon.. hai.. wat can i do.. everyone wants to protect me.. im a princess in their eyes u see.. kekek... The scene this afternoon was like this..

"Daddy.... I have to discuss something with u.... this few weeks i'm going to have to attend many birthday parties and gathering hor... Just to let u know in advance..." i battered my eye lid as i speak..

"So?? U can just attend by phone call..."

"How to leh???" i asked...

"Simple.. Just call them on their hp and ask them put on speaker.. u can pretend that u are there.. Dun think abt going out mei.. u too much already this few days..." he ended with a phrase which slapped my face...

"But... But... Ahhhhh... (here is the sa jiao part)... Di........ I work so hard at mac so i need to relax mah....."

"U can jolly well relax at home... Sit infront of the tv just like yr mum.." he snorted, together with a side glance towards my mum who is very much glued to the tv.. like always.... She and her korean dramas ... haha...

"Please dun pull me into your conversation !! i dun want to get involved... Stay at home lah mei..." with that, she smile with that mischievous look !! Oh god !! wat did i do to deserve such parents... Thank u ar.. thats wat mothers are for ain it? First, they refuse to stand by u.. second... they help the opposite party to sharpen the knife and stab u with it !!

"Daddy please......... i help u wash yr car lah.... Can lah... Let me go lah... "

"No need... I dun want my car to break down after u wash it... eveything u touch will definitely spoil... Wat time u want to come back?"

"Hmmm... Wat time u want me to be back?" (this was always a winning question.. it makes the parent think that they are still very much in control..) ahahha...

"10pm..." he ended with a smirk..

"HUH???!! but the party starting at 7 plus leh.... later abit can?" Once more the pathetic face reappear...

"Then too bad... Stay at home then..."

"12 o'clock can? Even cinderalla can be home by 12am leh!.. i promise to be realllyyyy good.."

"Fine !! Dun be late !! Or u will regret being born..."

Suddenly... the korean drama queen added...

"Why let her go? Let her stay at home ma..........." my mum said with that nasty grin on her face..

"Mummy !! just watch yr tv lah k? Dun interupt or i tell daddy u put the korean star picture in yr wallet !!" i whispered to her...

"Dun be late ! " She ended off facing back to her tv... Hai... So i find out... My mum is such a B***H.. Sorry. cant say it out or i'll get strike by lightning.. hahah..

So Shirmaine seow has won the battle !! hmmm... Sunday i still have another party leh... Shit.. i have to start begging again tml... oh well... Thats life !! not everything will go yr way.. haha..

"...When marimbo rhythmn start to play, dance with me... make me sway..."
Micheal Buble was AMAZING !! Went to catch him live at the indoor staduim on monday.. he's just fabulous !! Although i cant really see his face due to my cheapskate seats but his voice was sooooooooooooooo good... Goodness.. i just melted listening to his soothing voice... Why is it that men entering my life cant sing like this !! SHIT !! Haiz..

He has a great sense of humour too... Few times he amuse the audience with his jokes.. He ran down the stage to meet the fans but i was sitting WAY WAAAYYYY back so he didnt come over.. *sobsob* Wanted to tailed him back to his hotel but was stopped by my sister.. Why wont u let me go??? Maybe i can be Mrs Buble tml.. hehehe... yeah.. im still dreaming...

He went on doing tracks of Maroon 5 "This Love"... and he did it beautifully............... *MELTZ* Why am i here and he's there? shouldn keep two ppl in love apart right? kk.. im thinking too much le.. hahah... Didnt regret going... One thing that disappoint me was that he didnt sing my favourite song 'The way u look tonight' !! ARGH... hai.. But he's worth every penny man.. ok.. the tix we got happen to be the second cheapest.. but hey ! at least we pay to go ma... isnt it?

".. Sis, i think i want get a souvinor from this concert leh.. Come all the way here dun buy anythin very wasted hor.." i ask my sis..

"... Firstly, its too darn expensive, if u want to pay for yrself then go ahead.. but if u expect me to pay then F off..."
"....Secondly, Why the hell u need it for? as if Buble will know u bought it and come 'oooohhh, u bought my items? so sweet of u... let me sign for u...' No right? Mei... WAKE UP LAH !!...

And she ended off wih a bloody smirk on her face.. as if she just talked sense to an idiot... haiz... for yr information.. My sister is like no other sister... She's very pretty like a rose and also her words have torns also like a freaking rose.. times when she start her sarcasm, the person getting it will feel the pinch... and im telling u... its not those kind harmless ones... look at me !! im still traumatize by my sad childhood.. hahah.. but i love her alot.. She's like a role model for me... i'll do anything to protect her.. as if she needs my protection.. hahha...

One thing i hated abt going out with my sis is that... guys always look at her, after looking at her then they will like give me a so-call side glance as if pity me that no attention was given to me !! hello !! im not that bad ok !! haiz... But seriously, those guys cant keep their eyes to themselves even with their gf beside them... Conclusion... Guys are PIGS !! This lead to another conversation...

"Why the hell these guys keep looking? Dun they have shame ??"

"...mei ah...... yr sister is so gorgeous they cant help looking... Just look at the girls walking beside them... such tragic faces.. of coz they rather look at me..." she replied..

-.-" this was the face i gave her.... haha...

I was LATE for work this morning... Shit lor.. I was suppose to be at my store by 0630am for opening and guess wat time i woke up... 0640 !! fucked up man... Had the shocked of my life when i see the time.. First time in my macdonald career i was this late.. Moreover.. i was never late for opening before mind u.. total crapness.. Got to book cab somemore..

I reach store abt 710... fast right?? i did bathe un worry... haha.... i was mentally prepared to get a thrashing from my boss lor.. but then sharon cover up for me so.... I GOT OFF THE HOOK UNHARMED !! wahhahah.. lucky me.. but then again... i cant claim the taxi fare becoz the time on the reciept will blow the cover... hai.. but oh well.. theres a price to pay for everything aint it? hehe..

Lionel commission ball was fun man..so freaking formal.. got stunned when i entered the hall.. but i was properly dressed as well so it was alright? He bought me flowers when he came to fetch me.. so sweet right??? hahah... sometimes he can be so nice.. but there are times when he treat me like shit lor... hahaha..

So sleepy now.. wanna go home and sleep now le............... Zzzzzz.....

According to my so many years of experiences in shopping... i can conclude that we, as shoppers cannot really trust the salesperson... I went down to CK tangs this afternoon to get my gown.. yup.. i got it finally... so, actually.. i was in a confused state coz theres two dress which i took a liking on.. and i cant decide which to purchase... I came out of the dressing room with the first outfit...

"....oh !! u look so lovely in this dress... brings out yr femine side... (as if i have one.. crap..).. the lady said...

Honestly.. i look fat lor... becoz there is this fizzle pattern at the tummy area which made me look so compressed together !! I look at lionel and he just keep laughing.. idiot... thanx for not helping... so.. i came out again with the next outfit...

"....this dress really fits u perfectly... no alteration needed.. just perfect.." the SAME lady said...

After her comments for the first dress u think i believe her... hell no !! So i took a very long time to looking ard and finally decided on the second one... hopefully i didnt made the wrong choice... but seriously, if one person is pretty.. no matter wat she wear, she will also be pretty lor... hahahah.. shameless again.. i know..

I went home... eagerly wanting to call my best pal Tan Kee Lin to tell him abt my dress... But guess wat !! he aint ard... he not at home and he didnt ans his hp... Honestly kee lin... why the fuck do u have a phone when u dun answer !! so.. i smsed him...

" Are u avoiding me kee lin??"

10 sec later.... i recieve an sms...

"Call my hp now..." cheapo singaporean !! making use of free incoming call.. tsk tsk tsk... hahah

So.. i called him... i gave him a decent "Hello" u know....

"Wat?... was his reply... how rude.....

Guess where is he???? He's at bt panjang mac updating his blog !! making use of the wireless there... kaoz.. si bei cheapo lor.. hahah... he didnt even purchase anything and he have the cheek to sit there for god knows how long... all i can conclude is that......... my bestest pal is truely a CHEAPO !! hai...

And oh ya... my last day in this store will be on the 30th oct... that will make it 24 days to go !! yeah !!! Im going to leave here will a blast !! Been here for abt 2 years plus le... going to miss my crews here though... but.. everyone have to move on... so guys... dun cry for me ok? hahah.. as if they will... love u guys lots.. although u all always bully me but i still love u all.. haha...

Tml is the Ball... Wish me luck !! hopefully i dun embarrass lionel... come to think of it... HE better dun disgrace me !! hahah...

One last thing... Ril... take care of yrself in tekong k... u will always be missed...

Till next blog !! Ciaoz.........

FINALLY !! been busy busy busy till no time to blog... kk.. lets start on Oct 1st....

Kz.. That day was Lionel's commission parade.. and of coz im invited.. im one of his important guest u see.. heheh.. shameless.. the whole parade was damn grand wan.. usher everytwhere and stuffs.. oh ya.. got to thank lionel's dad for the ride there.. Went with his whole family.. abit shy.. hahah..

So, all the graduating officers was dress in smart uniform.. couldnt really tell who is who when they march in... all i know was lionel is in contingent 7... and in that contigent theres almost 40 ppl.. try spoting that !! hai.. after much searching ard, i finally spotted him.. he look so dashing in the uniform... gosh... as he was marching up the stairs, he gave me a wink.. wow... can faint.. hahah... after the whole parade thingy, we went down to the parade square to have our pic taken with him.. will post them soon alright??

After that, i rush down to stuart's bday... i got on a cab, told the driver the destination and then sat back and listen to the song SUO YI by sly sim.. humming to that song all the way there... so i reach there, saw two of my pals from poly.. Fariz and Kumar.. Kumar didnt change abit but i had to admit Fariz look fitter.. hahah.. we chit-chatted abt life.. mostly NS stuffs which i was no interested at all... im a girl for heaven sake !! They disturbed me like usual.. Meeting up with them didnt change abit.. Just that there used to be someone beside me.. but its alright... i can live with that.. hahah...

I got to admit, my heart still beats when i saw him... he's still shahril.. but just that he's not my shahril anymore.. we didnt talk much, maybe becoz we got nothing to say to each other anymore... Anyways.. He's going NS this friday.. i wanna wish him all the best... somehow a little part of me still miss him.. surely wan ma.. right? hahah.. Take care of yrself in tekong.. dun force yrself too much in physical.. and dun be so stubborn !! hahah..

Yesterday i took my advanced theory.. And.. i failed... expected wan... didnt study at all.. damn busy ma.. nevermind... there's always next time.. hahah.. anyway, lionel say he will be my driver for life wat.. sweet right? hahahah.. i think he scare becoz if got my license only i will take his wife out for a spin... how selfish.. hahha.. After that, i went home to sleep then went out shopping for my gown !! lionel's ball is this friday and I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR !! shit !! always last min.. sianz...

And one last thing... aloysius hurt his back... see lah.. play basketball somemore lah... guys will always be guys.. Deserve it !! hahaha... becareful next time !!

Going shopping again later after work.. so.. wish me luck in finding a gown... till then.. ciaoz..