Feeling so pissed off now..
I have been ask not to come work today again becoz they wanna cut labour !!
Wat the FARK !!
I wake up so early to go work and one sms came and say..
Maine.. Today u off.. CB..
Oh well... part timers are like that lah..
Get used to it Maine !!

Can u actually love someone as a friend whom is actually yr ex???
How do u actually stop loving someone?
When u decided not to see or contact him anymore, u missed him terribly..
But when u get to see him.. u get disappointed coz he only treat u like a friend..
Wat to do to lessen the pain..
I get confuse at times.. thinking that i can do it..
I can treat him like a friend..
I cant.. Im trying... But i cant...
Can u stop loving someone whom u loved dearly for almost 3 years?
Wat actually am i waiting for?
For something that will never happen?
Or waiting for someone who doesnt love me anymore..
When will i wake up?

It hurts to know he doesnt want u back..
It hurts to know he doesnt need u back..
It hurts trying to not to hold on but actually is...
It just hurts so much...

When will i accept the fact that we are just friends?
When will i let go?
When will i stop loving him?
I dun know..
I really dun...

I wont ask him back anymore..
Coz i dun want to get disappointed..
But i will always be here if he turns back..
I still will..
I love him too much..
Why cant he love me like last time??

Let this be the last time im feeling this way...
Please.......

Wat if whatever u believe in for 2 years turn out to be a lie?
Wat if the love u cherish all these while turns out to be just sympathy?
Wat if all memories of u and him suddenly turns out blurish?
Wat if the person u really love actually doesnt love u as much as u expected after all?
Wat if within on night all yr dreams shattered into thousand pieces?
Wat if within one moment yr heart breaks into million pieces?
Wat if u wake up one morning knowing that the person u live for is not coming back to u?
Wat if......
Tell me... Wat if....
Wat will u do?
Welome To My Life.....
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"maine !! yr blog is so boring...." hmmm.. thats wat ril said to me yesterday..

Oh well.. its either u like it or not.. hahha..

Had i good day yesterday.. went out with him...

watched The Island at westmall..

The show was very good.. Ril give it 4.5 out of 5 bites.. u must understand that

Shahril is very picky in movies.......... So the show got to be good..

hahaha.. the theatre was

freaking cold !! i was shivering from head to toe inside..

we talk alot after that..

at the Kopi Roti Stall.. Goodness..

I must emphasis that the egg there doesnt taste like egg..

the bread doesnt taste like bread.. Needless to say anymore right?? hahah..

We discuss abt things.. abt each others life... but not abt us...

its forbidden u see.. keke..

But its ok.. as long as his happy... im happy...

My quote for today : Never start a relationship with a person out of any reason except love... There wont be any nice ending...

Ok.. lets talk abt my all time favourite book.. Harry Potter... I'm a big BIG fan of the book series.. As u all know that the 6th book has just publish in stores.. It hit the shelves on the 16th of july.. i didnt do advance booking becoz i was forbidden to by someone who thinks that advance booking is just wasting of cash.. hmpf.. but i dun mind !! haiz.. so still i heeded his advice and didnt place a booking.. when i was at westmall on the 18th to purchased it, i was praying damn hard for it... at last.. i laid my hands on my book !!!!! it costs $40.59.. its like my one day pay(pathetic).. but who cares.. hahha..

I spend the whole of next day staying at home reading it.. but wa lau... the ending sux man... The whole book was amazing but why dumbledore have to die !!! i almost cried reading it.. my sis thinks i'm mad becoz of that.. oh well.. sad.. now harry have no one to look up to.. in the 5th book his godfather died.. both his parents died when he was an infant.. now dumbledore.. wat is this world coming to !! got anymore suei than that not !! haiz... pity...

Its just a book maine..... get over it... wat the fark !! its my all time favourite leh... i have been waiting almost 2 years for this book then the ending dumbldore have to died... SHIT... hopefully the next book will have a better ending...

One of another unforgetable part of the book was when harry decided to break off with his gf ginny weasley(sister of ron weasley).. the reason.. he was afraid that whoever close to him will have a bad ending.. becoz in book 2 (chamber of secret), voldemort uses ginny to do evil stuff for him.. so he was afraid that harm may fall upon ginny again if they carry on being together.. WAT THE HELL IS HE THINKING OF ???!!! love is abt going through thick and thin.. Ginny was even prepared to stand by him... GUYS... always thinking watever they do is right.. cannot take it !! If u love somebody... STICK TO IT !!! harry may be a great wizard but he sux at relationship !!! oh well...

thats all for the 6th book... looking forward to the next book !!!