Sadly... I have been made a fool again...
Yup... A big idiot fool...
I choose to love the person..
But now i realize that it was all just a joke..
Im just a stupid joke in his eyes...
Wat more can i say......

Do anyone know how it feels to be ignore by the person u love most?
I can tell u.. Its fucking painful...
Its like time is fooling u while u wait for his reply..
I just want to know wat i mean to him actually..
But i guess it will always remain a mystery..

Im in pain now..
Trying to forget is painful..
If u love that person so much..
Would u bear to see her in such pain?
The answer is no..

But since im suffering like fuck now..
Obviously, he doesnt love me anymore..
Then why am i still hesitating?
I had been made the laughing joke of the century,
By the man i love most...
Thank u shahril...

I cried again today...
Till my eyes are so heavy..
Then wats next?
I cant go on like this...
If theres really a god up there..
Please end my misery...

Shahril... I cant tell u how i feel anymore..
Stop ignoring me..
It hurts badly..
Im so tired already...